Lately I have been feeling like I am living someone else's life. I have felt a little out of place to say the least. I feel like I am Living a Dream. The things I am doing right now are part of my life dream, they simply are not happening on my time table. The Lord's "timetable" is often different from our own.
This past weekend we went camping. Last weekend we were in St. G. It has been a blast! I'll post some pictures later. As I have said before Dave is the cameraman now that my camera died, so as soon as he uploads the pictures I'll post some.
My mom got me this for Mothers Day.
This past weekend we went camping. Last weekend we were in St. G. It has been a blast! I'll post some pictures later. As I have said before Dave is the cameraman now that my camera died, so as soon as he uploads the pictures I'll post some.
My mom got me this for Mothers Day.
This is what it is...
I know it is blurry so this is what it says, Father and Daughter "Celebrating the bond of love between fathers and daughters".
This last week was my dad's birthday. I don't know why, but I bawled. I just wanted to be able to call him and say "hi" and ask how his day was? My dad has been gone physically for almost 9 years now. I say physically because I know he is here with me in some form that doesn't allow me to see him. It is kinda strange how when someone close to us dies we never know when we're going to have a sad moment and just miss them like crazy!
On my dad's birthday I just wanted him to be here so I could see him and hear his voice and give him a hug. I know that he is with me more now than he could have been if he were alive, but it is not always easy. I am grateful I have learned from this experience because I have empathy for others and can "morn with those that morn" better, and "comfort those who stand in need of comfort" better, but that does not always make it easy.
I love life and I love learning. I am thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who does not let us do it alone.
7 comments:
I miss your dad too. He was great. I don't care how long a person has passed away, it's always hard. Grant still has those really sad days when it's his mom's birthday or the day of her accident. It somehow does make you a stronger person i think and definitely more sensitive to others going through the same thing. Hang in there girl..You are doing great. I am so proud of you for going back to school and all. you are a huge inspiration for me.
I know how you feel Rilla...and it is not easy! Hang in there! I love ya!
oh love! You are so sweet. I miss getting to be as close as we once were. I love and miss your dad too! He was a great man with a smile that warmed your heart! I cherish the fact that I was lucky enough to know him!!
Im sending you a big hug today!
XOXOX!!!
I had to cry right along with you. My dad has been gone since
'91. It is hard, and sometimes you just need to cry. You are an inspiration to us all. Hang in there.
Thanks for sharing that, Marilla!!
I always learn so much from your posts. Thanks for all your uplifting words and scriptures. They give me a boost! I can't imagine how much you miss your dad. He was such a great man and I always looked forward to seeing him at the reunions, etc. I can see him in you in many ways. Just wanted to drop you a little note!
I love you Rella. Yup I missed him too. I thought about him on his birthday and on your parents anniversary. I can't believe its been 9 years. It seems like forever ago but yet yesterday. You are amazing, I love you.
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