Self Control

Why do I struggle so much to control what I eat?
I eat when I am stressed and I think it makes me feel better but I know I would feel SO much better in the stress if I was eating healthy.
When I eat healthy I don't feel fat, bloated, chubby, overweight, and my clothes are not too tight. When I tell people I am going to eat better I eat worse, so it does not help if I ask for tons of support, I have to decide for myself and then do it myself.
It would be nice to have someone to call when I feel weak and know that they will support me by reminding me to eat healthy i.e. carrots, celery, fruit, water... but in reality I just need some self- control.
I went to the Dr. yesterday for a check-up and had to step on that scale... crap!!! I am done with school now so that stress should be gone, but now I am working full time so there is that added stress, plus we have to move because our landlords are not going to be renting this house anymore (their granddaughter needs a place to stay). No matter what, there is always going to be some stress, so that is no longer an excuse!!!

I know I am beautiful and weight does not matter, but it is important to eat healthy and feel healthy, and treat our bodies like the temples they are, plus it hurts to run cuz I'm so chubby.

Help me out, please, (my face is showing the chubbiness) what do you do?

Perfect Day

I do not know why I share such intimate experiences on this blog... I guess it is because I hope that it will help someone else, it is a cute way to "journal" these events, and I can write it better than saying it.

Soooo here you go.

As I was getting ready for the day, the day after my graduation, I was full of gratitude for all I have been given, then this random thought came into my mind... the one thing that would've made my graduation day even more perfect would have been to have my dad there.
Every big event my family has had since my dad passed away I have always had very strong impressions that my dad was there. The mornings both of my boys were born I had overwhelming feelings of peace and comfort knowing that my dad was with me.
When all of my siblings left and came home from their missions, and got married I had similar impressions. Whenever I need it most I'll see a UPS truck or see my 'Uncle' Don who calls me "Roo", a nick name from my dad.
As graduation approached I knew I would get the feeling that he was there and he was proud of me and I was waiting for it.
My mom made the comment that now he has his BYU grad and I knew that he was proud, the ring my mom gave me was from my dad for her, so I knew that he was in on the gift with her, but I still had not received that special feeling that comes only from him and the spirit, and Saturday morning after graduation I got it.
I had this overwhelming feeling that he was there with me and he was proud, the tears just flowed and flowed and flowed. I am so thankful for the tender mercies of our loving Father in Heaven who at moments allows the veil to be thin enough for us to feel the presence of those who have passed on.
In church yesterday I was overcome with gratitude at the love of our Father who helps us through trials and struggles only to make us stronger, better people. I know I could not have completed the last two years without some special help from above. I am grateful to know that I am a better person for sticking with it and trusting in the Lord, counting on Him in times of need.

I like this pic of the boys in their flip flops so I wanted to include it.

I love this guy too! I love that we are growing old and chubby together :)
I know I had so much help from so many earthly angels so many that I could not name them all, we have had such a great ward, a great landlord, great neighbors, wonderful friends, terrific classmates, amazing professors and mentors, and the best family EVER!
The past 20+ months have been so life changing for me that I may just randomly post about them for the next little while. Thank you for bearing with me and still following my blog.
Love you and Thank you!!!

Princess

Today I felt like a Princess.

The past two days I have felt spoiled.
I have a whole lot of gratitude!
It all started with attending Convocation Thursday with my classmates, listening to Elder Christopherson, of the quorum of the 12 apostles, speak.
The weather was beautiful, the talks were amazing and the spirit has been so strong.
My mom, sis, cousin, nephew, mom and dad-in-law all came up from St. G and we went to dinner at Outback Steakhouse Thursday evening.

I told my mom last year that when she died this ring was all I wanted. Ever since I was a kid I would see her wearing it and I loved it. Well, she had it sized to fit me and cleaned and she gave it to me for graduation! I love it!

I told Dave I wanted this pic for Graduation and Mothers Day and he and his parents got it for me for graduation. YAY! It is gorgeous, it is called Men of Galilee, and it reminds me of my boys. I hope someday they will see it as a reminder to be "Men of Galilee".

We had waffles and eggs for breakfast Friday morning after I worked for two hours and did some yoga. Then my sis did my hair and I was off to graduation/punch and cookies with my momma.
It was so fun to have my mom there with me because I was able to introduce her to many people (Professors and classmates) that have been influential in my life these past 20 months. She was like my own personal camera crew because she would take pics whenever I asked her to of me and my friends.

Friday after graduation we went to lunch at the very delicious Burger Supreme in Provo. If you have not been there you need to try it, mmmm delish.

I love my boys!

Me and My BFF Silene!
I totally appreciate the love and support I have been given throughout the past two years. Many people were here this weekend and many others called and offered their love and congrats today as well. I am so blessed!
These are some of my supporters. Love you!
Me and my hubby with the Y behind us. Love him, I truly could not have done this without him, he deserved that stole of gratitude.
Kaden, my cuz and I.
Yay, totally excited to be done. Mom, me and sis.
Dave and I finished off the night by attending the Jazz game with Brendon and Tess. The Jazz beat the Nuggets in an awesome playoff game!
I could go on and on... I could post more and more photos, I had my personal camera crew, remember... For now I'll stop, but I'll post more later.
Thank you all for helping me feel so important, special and loved, I owe all I have to our Father in Heaven. I am so grateful for the blessings He has given me.
I truly feel like a princess.

Announcement

So this is what I get when I scan on my scanner and our computer is funky so I cannot edit it.These are the announcements I made with the photo shoot photos. I sent some to Aunts, Uncles, and Grandparents so if you are not one of those you get this. :) Love ya!

Commencement

Thursday April 22, 2010

4:00 PM Marriott Center

Social Work Graduation Reception

Friday April 23, 2010

12:00-1:00 PM

Mary Lou Fulton Plaza (JFSB Courtyard)

Convocation

Friday April 23, 2010

2:00 PM Marriott Center

If any of you are in the area and would like to attend please feel free to. Also, I want to thank all of our family and friends for their love and support, we could not have done this without you! Since getting these photos taken I have had several people ask me why Dave is not in them. I simply thought it would be a cute announcement if it was from the boys, because they truly are so excited for me to graduate and to have their momma back a little. Dave is proud of this accomplishment as well, but that was not my idea.

The weekend

This weekend was fun.
My graduating class had our graduation celebration.

I hung out with some friends Friday after the celebration while Dave and the boys were in St. G.
Rachel, Rachelle, and Me.
We were in St. G to celebrate the return of my In-Laws from their mission in the West Indes.
Me and my Sis-in-laws; Angee, Julie, Chris, Jacquie and Me.
(I am not sure why these pics are so small, sorry.)
The bunch of celebrators in St. G.

While in St. G I was in for a special treat because my ever-so-talented cousins Lyndy and Lacey had a mini concert and I was able to go.

YAY! If you ever get the chance to see them perform, take it, I dare say you will be inspired, because I am. For some reason whenever I hear Lyndy sing I get so emotional, Lacey is just as talented! Thanks Ladies!

We also got to swim and spend time with cousins.
I Love my family, I am so blessed and grateful for them!
I love how hanging out in St. G with my family rejuvenates me.
I truly feel the love of our Father in Heaven in my life.

Photo shoot...

Have you ever tried doing a photo shoot with two young boys between the ages of 4 and 6?

Well I have and look what I got...

My good friend in grad school took these for me so I could make some graduation announcements.

This pose was meant for them because they were getting bored so we tried to do something fun.

Crazy kids! If I had to pick one word to describe them I would choose Protector/Loyal for one and Clown/Lover for the other. I guess I couldn't even pick one word.

Can you tell which is which? :)

I like this silly one.

Gosh I sure love them! They have been so patient with me and school these last two years, I know they are EXCITED to have their momma back!

Friends...

Like I have said before I have always been blessed with amazing friends all my life!Anna, Me and Lindsey
These are some of my newest friends since moving to Provo. We went out tonight to celebrate my last day of class.
YAY!!!! Luv ya Ladies!

The Boys.

David and Joey have had Spring break this past week and I have been busy finishing up school, but we have still gotten to spend some time together. I love them so much!!! I want to share a cute thing I have heard from both of them lately.

Last week I overheard Joey as he was walking down into our "scary" dark basement... he was saying "you can do this Joey". Then he asked me "mom how does I am a child of God go?" and he started singing it without prompting as he was walking down the stairs. So cute! I have prompted them before, when they are scared, to sing their primary songs cuz that's what always works for me, but I had no idea it was actually sticking :)

Then yesterday David, when I got home from work, came in and sat by me doing my unwind at the computer and he said "I got a little worried today"(he worries a lot). He said "I am not worried about us dying anymore I am worried about if it actually happens... if we actually get to be together forever." I didn't think anything of it for a second and then he started to cry and said "what if I don't have a brother." He said "mom I feel really bad for what I have done to Joey." I said "what did you do?" and he said "you know being mean so much". May I remind you this kid is 6. years. old. I am so proud of him. He loves his little brother and he is listening to his conscience/the Holy Spirit.

This is them right. this. second., sleeping, the closer they are to each other at night the better our chances are of them staying in their own bed.
That's my post for the day. Love you all!

I like this saying...
Daddy's Boys Momma's Heroes!

This Weekend!

What a weekend!!!

David lost his fourth tooth Friday day.

Elder and Sister Leishman came home from an 18 month mission to the West Indes, Thursday, but we got to see them on Friday evening up here.

They took more pics so Ill have to wait for them to get them posted and then I'll borrow them.

My mom, sister and cousin Kaden came up Friday night.

We went to the Saturday afternoon session of General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. That was spirit filled.

Went to dinner with family and friends Saturday night.

We watched conference all weekend. Thankful for the words of the prophets, seers and revelators of God.

Colored Easter Eggs.

Got lotsa Easter treats. Taught boys more about the Resurrection.

Made snowmen, as the snow was melting.

and Celebrated my parents 35 wedding anniversary.

Happy Anniversary Mom!